Pain

What makes a child pout and scream? What triggers a toddler hit another? What causes an elementary school kid bully? Why does a teen hurt? What makes someone just shoot at random? What made someone create the disastrous nuke that haunts innocents even today in Hiroshima and Nagasaki? Why did a meticulous plan made unsuspecting humans die a gruesome death on 9/11? And why does people so inhumanly treat fellow humans in SriLanka and Syria and all over the world???

Anger? hatred? madness? It all stems from one human...and works its way into the society, and spreads like a forest fire in perfect dry, windy, hot condition. Of course hatred and anger are hot red feelings. As those feelings churn inside a human, they burn everything around and inside...

From time immemorial, as far as the humans have a tractable history, we have had anger, hatred and of course war. But back them people had a reason, motive to kill. The wars happened in the outskirts and the innocent citizens were protected. Now that we are evolved in everything, killing innocents is the new revenge. If someone gets mad, they decide to take a gun and shoot at random - killing normal innocent, completely unconnected human beings...and when another country wants to take it out, just drop a bomb or find some innovative way to mass destruct. Even within the same country, things that affects us so strongly happen and people live and die through it...

Isn't it simply crazy to think about? It was 9/11 yesterday and a family that lost found a hand written note from that person, apparently he wrote and threw out the window before dying. His bloody thumb print was DNA checked to confirm it was him who wrote it. It was his last attempt to reach our to humanity while suffering God knows what amount of pain and anguish...God I shudder to imagine such pain. And this family thought he had died a sudden death. The anguish this note causes is true not to just that family but every single one lost in every single gruesome incident. And every single human being who still have sensitivity to fellow human.

I still want to believe this is a peaceful place to live and try all I can to impart the value of humanity to my children. But I cannot erase the agony of living in the world especially, in this dream turned nightmare.